ive been missing you dearly. So my birthday was just on friday and i read your birthday letter to me every year. 17 days before my birthday Lauren Passed away. im sure you know and i hope your showing her the roots. its really hard to let you all go and i hope i see you soon. Please tell her im sorry for everything, she was and will always be my best friend. I remember when Chuckie and Christopher made fun of her for that shirt she wore ;). haha good times. Tell chuckie i miss him too.
i love you all so much and i cant wait to reunit with you guys. please send me some dreams.
ive been missing you dearly. So my birthday was just on friday and i read your birthday letter to me every year. 17 days before my birthday Lauren Passed away. im sure you know and i hope your showing her the roots. its really hard to let you all go and i hope i see you soon. Please tell her im sorry for everything, she was and will always be my best friend. I remember when Chuckie and Christopher made fun of her for that shirt she wore ;). haha good times. Tell chuckie i miss him too.
i love you all so much and i cant wait to reunit with you guys. please send me some dreams.
just a little something i found / Missy (daughter)Read >>
just a little something i found / Missy (daughter)
fill not your hearts fill not you hearts with pain and sorrow, but remember me in every tomorrow. remember the joy, the laughter, the smiles, for ive only gone to rest for a little while. although my leaving cause pain and grief, my going has eased my hurt and given me relief. so dry our eyes and remember me,not as i am now, but as i used to be. i will remember you all and look on with a smile. understand,in your hearts, ive only gone for a little while. As long as i have the love of each of you, i can life my life in the hearts of all of you. Close
Daddy/ Missy (daughter)
I miss you more than anything. Life down here gets tougher by the day. Im sure you know what going on. Kyle has really shown me how great of a guy he really is. His family is drving me nuts!I just cant take it. Im trying to do the right thing. There are days every now and again i pretend im okay. I have so much to say and no one has a open mind, or heart. Its hard to deal with the pain of losing you. Its so hard to wake up and be okay with everything. losing you. Your my dad and soon to be a grandfather. I wish with everything i had that this baby could meet you. No one understands me here. Maybe Kyle. But you were the only one. I remember just having conversations about everything under the sun with you, because i could. Now i have to bottle things up and keep it to myself. I lost it the other day and ever now and again i just lose it. I just flip out because no one recongnizes what ive been through. Losing you was the hardest thing thats ever happened. And its seems like people dont give a damn. I just need your voice. I need you to calm me down and be here again. I dont want to be selfish but its hard not to be when i lost you at 14. ever since ive been a lost puppy, you guided me towards the good, and i took you for granted. I love you more than anything in the world. Please give me a sign that you love me too. Close
Hey Tom, just remembering you today.... / Mari Read >>
Hey Tom, just remembering you today.... / Mari
It is very hard to believe you have been in Heaven 2 years. The memories of my last time spent with you will forever be etched in my mind. You told me you knew your time was short. I said, no one has the promise of being here tomorrow. I asked you if you were ready to die. You assured me you knew Christ. Because of your faith, you are happy and at peace with Him, and all of the other family members who went before you. We who are left behind, are happy for you, but just miss you. Your children's lives were changed forever the day you died, and my heart breaks for them. They struggle to keep going, struggling to live their lives without the dad they so loved. So, my beloved, brother-in-law and friend, look down from Heaven, stay close to them, intercede in prayer for them, and know you are forever loved and forever missed. (And please keep an eye on my Chuckie for me!) Close
I remember when we used to go to subway and we sat in the same table everytime and when you would go to sit down you would say, hope i can fit. And even though i was only 14 years old at the time i still loved when you grabbed my hand to cross the street. i miss you big hands and your big smile. I would always play with that vain the you have on you hand. For my birthday the family got me a necklace with my ashes and i'm think i'm going to cry when i recieve it. I got a letter in the mail yesturday saying that they are suspending my license for 90 because i had 9 un excused absences. whatev. but i just wanted to tell you some things in my life. I'm still not with kyle we broke up two weeks ago and its been rele hard. I love him so much and its crazy to spend so much time with someone and then just watch it all crumble slowly. THe day of my birthday i have to wake up 9 to be ready by 10 for youth convention. I think the church family is trying to do something for my birthday. which is really sweet of them. I love my best friend danielle. You dropped me off and picked me up at her house a few times. But me and her are inseperable. i love having someone always there for me no matter what i do. and she always has such good advice. kinda like you. I miss you so much and wish i could have you back, but in my heart i know that god needs you more than we do. You did what he wanted in like and it was your time to go home.. I love so much dad!
Hello my sweet father. here i am again to say hello. Soo much for your soulmate, shes loves you too much to wirte you.. She took our money and eveything with it.. We have no memories but the ones we can remember. I'm sad and coming to you today because i think i'm going to be breaking up with my boyfriend of a year. I think i will be much happier but i love him so much, i fell for him but he didn't do the same for me.. He always hangs all over girls and thinks its okay, hes need to find someone who is okay with it because i'm not. I think its inapproprait and completely unessicary.. Nothing more i can do about it. My sweet 16 is coming up, moms letting me get my permit, if you were still here i know you would put me in the front seat and let me drive even though i cant drive stick.. I remember when i was 12 we were in the Bills parking lot and you put me in your little blue care and you sat in the drivers side and said, "well you said you wanted to drive, then drive" and i started crying becuase i didn't want to get into a car reck. Every time i think about driving i think about you and how you would have tought me so well just like all the other kidss. I've been thinking latly and i want to get to know Jimmy. I think it would be a wonderful expirience. I've been going back to church latly. I love it there my church is so welcoming and i love all the people they are all so nicee. but i'll close with this.. I love you so much my dear father and you are missed every dayy. If i could just see your smile without having to remember it, i would be the happoest girl in the world. You're little girl misses you and she knows you miss her.
Hey Tom, It's hard to believe you have been gone for a year.... / Mari Read >>
Hey Tom, It's hard to believe you have been gone for a year.... / Mari
You must have been on my mind a lot lately, because I dreamt about you last night...... I went to visit your kids and you were there. I hugged you and cried when I saw you, because I said to you, I thought you had died. Then you disappeared. Even though it was only a dream, it was good to see you again. I know you are happier where you are, but I am sad that your precious kids now have to finish growing up and live their lives without their father. A very hard thing to do. You and Chuck both know how hard it it to grow up without a father. Know that we miss you very much and look forward to seeing you and that kid of mine sometime soon...( I know you are keeping an eye on him, for me!) Love you lots, Mari
So much for a year / Missy (daugher)
It feels much longer than a years now. It feels like its been decades i miss you my sweet father.. You're a lovely caring person and you make my world a better place, although its harder now to deal with your passing. My life will never be the same without you, but i've grown from your death. My dear father we will meet again one day, and when that day comes you best believe you're going to get the best hug ever. My lovely boyfriend even misses you a little and he doesn't even know you, but by knowing me and knowing what i say about you he feels like he already is your best friend!
I'm sorry you dont get to phiysically see me or touch me but i know you're here in spirit i love you my sweet padre and i CANNOT ait to see you again. Give me strength to get through this.
i dont know what to do. / Missy (daughter)
this is ridiculous. its almost fathers day and i have no father. this is sad and heart breaking. I'm pissed i dont have you here with me. i believe you would be very proud of me. i'm done being a the girl without her father. i miss you dad. and what i would really love is if you could be here for five second so i could ell you i love you and gve you a hug. i hate this. i love you. and goodnight. Close
just wanted to fill you in on my life. I still work at Kasa's but from now on until the end of the school year i'm only going to work friday nights so i can have time to study for my finals. I have a boyfriend, his name is kyle, kyle haab. Hes really nice, i like him and i'm sure you would too. I'm not doing to well in math, but i'm working on it, these past couple of weeks i almost got into 5 fights all with boys. They all called me names so they deserved what came to them. I miss you. Yesturday (friday) in gym class i got into a fight with these two boys and i almost punched the one because of the name he called me. I got escorted out of the gym because i was a threat to the class, then i got into a fight with the hall monitor, peaches. He makes me mad, him and his gayself. then i got in school for the rest of they day because they didn't want me near the boys. I got into a lot of troble and so did my one friend megan. Shes sleeping over tonight which should be fun because we've never slept over each others house. I'm excited. she's also never gotten her nails done so i'm going with her to do that. Then tomorrow me my friend emily her boyfriend patrick, my boyfriend and his friend chris are all going out to dinner. To a ty food resturant HA, i probably wont eat anything. Me and emily ae like twins though. I love it. But what i love even more is you. And on that note i must go and clean my room before mom yells at me again. Haha you know her! so i'll write to you soon and fill you in on my life once again. I love you so dearly dad.
hello pops / Missy (daughter)
supp? so today i was working and i ran into karl. and i was thinking on the phone when he said it karl with a k i was thinking hmm... drunkle karl.. NO WAYY then he walked in the door and i was like karl woda and hes like wait give me a minute and then he finally remembered it was me. and it made me happy to see him cause they way he looked at me told me that he does miss you. we were talking for a little while. his son got back surgery and its not any better then it was before, it worse. i told him i thought it was ironic because you got back surgery and it didnt help you even a little. he just really reminded me of you and i started tocry after he left and it still brings tears to my eyes. I guess is the day when my grieving for you really begins. i miss you dad. just remember i love you and even though you smoked that cigarrett when i asked you not to, it still makes me love you. i'm sorry for fighting with you that tuesday, i really just wanted you too stop the smoking. it obviously did kill you. maybe if you just listened to me and didnt smoke that cigarrette i could still have one more visit with you. only god knows, you're his now. i will remember you forever.
I miss you so much, life is so difficult without you baby. Please, I've lost faith right now, so I need your help. I miss you more every waking moment, when does it soak in that your gone, and life is to continue, never, I imagine. I love you baby. Love forever, Cheri.... Close
I miss my pops / Missy (daughter)
Hi dad. its me, missy. i was away at florida for a week and i couldn't stop thinking about you. i miss you soo much and my life gets harder each day that i relize that you're really gone. i hate saying goodbye so this is my hello to you forever. just know that no matter what i do, you'll always be number one and you'll always be my dad. I was thinking about that one summer when me amanda and jess wheshin had come with us. I remember after three days i wanted mom, when i was supposed to be down there for a week or two. but i wanted mom so badd and you had to bribe me to stay down there with you. I would give anything to take that back and send eternity with you. i miss my dad. you are my world and there isn't a day that goes by without me thinking about you. i love you more than anything in the world.
Hi dad / Missy (daughter)
unfortunatly today amanda went to aunt joanies to get some of your belongings. and we got basically nothing. we got books you never read or you probably didn't know about, we got shirts you never wore. its just simply not fair. i love you, but i think we should have gotten everything regardless. i dont care who was you "soulmate" or not. i want what belongs to me. i believe you bless us with your love everyday when you were and and even when you aren't. you are my father and nothing can and will ever change that. i know you loved us more than anything or anyone. i truly feel you live within me and guide me everyday. each and everyone of your KIDDS. i'm sorry i'm venting like this ecspecially cause you're no longer here. but my feeling should be heard. please let the person who is holding your belongings give them up. i dont agree with what they gave us. i'm sorry again daddy and i love you.
I love you / Cheri Egan (soulmate)
Hi baby, I just lost my last email to you. I know have another new job, trying to make it financially without you. I love you so muc h, and thank you for the dreams, Your my life, I know you are in heaven and very happy , I count the days to when we are reunited together again. Love me, cheri,, binky boo!!! Close
today its my birthday and i'm about to read the note you wrote me 2 years ago when i was turning 13. i have a picture of you sitting right here next to me. I miss seeing your face and miss holding your hand as we walked across the road to get to subway. I can't believe you're really gone. I know your sitting up there saying "you better not get into any trouble" haha. I wouldn't do anything i know you wouldn't want me to do. trust me. i love you dad. You're baby girl is growing up, with you right by her side to guide her through everything. I know you'll be there for me dad. I love you soo much and miss you more than ever. Love you, Your "birthday babe" Close
Two days til my birthday! yay. i'm excited. my first birthday without you. its going to be a sad one. i remember last year you took me to waltmart and bought me a nicholas sparks book, message in a bottle, and a silky tank top that was 6.89. i miss you. i miss you laugh. Everytime i walk into subway i see you sitting on the last table and eating a tuna hoagie. i really miss you. my best friend taylor invited me to florida with her. I'm soo excited we're going to disney world. i love her and her family, they're great people. so 15 wow, this sounds funny but i thought i would never see the day. i'll write back as soon as possible. I love you dad. Never ever forget it.
All My Love Honey Bunney / Cheri Egan (fiancee)Read >>
All My Love Honey Bunney / Cheri Egan (fiancee)
Hi baby,
Spring is coming, and it increases my sorrow, I remember us buying flowers, preparing our plans for summer, trips to the beach and going to Kim's pool to help get it ready for the girls and summer, ect.... Karl told me 6 months was his hardest, and it is now becoming mine. How do you loose your soulmate, your partner, your best friend, and my life?? I miss you baby, knowing you are somewhere you would have no desire to return to, being in heaven. I just feel bad for your last year of sorrow and hurt and agony you went through unnecessarily. You didn't deserve your last months of abuse you had to endure, lies, and twisted stories, on this earth, it breaks my heart. I love you so much, and pray for strength to go on and not dwell on the past months of your life. God, I wish you were here, but thank God you are in heaven. All my love forever, Cheri. PS Thank you Karl for the phone calls, I'll be in touch soon!!! And Missy - you will have great friends, just treat people with love and they will in turn treat you the same way you treat them!! Then, friends will be abundant and you willl feel good about yourself and others will treat you with the same respect!!! I love you, Cheri Close
DAd/ Missy (daughter)
i miss you. i have noe friends anymore. no one cares. obviously. i've becomea nothing, a nobody. My only friends are my family:(. Sometimes that just doesn't cut it. I miss you. I'm really starting to figure out who really is my freind and who isn't. I reallyt can't stand seeing nothing posted on your website. It saddens me. I guess the kids are the only ones who care that you're gone. I can't believe it. My anger is getting worse. I hate living this way. I don't want to be a loser anymore. It really kills me inside. i love you and i wish you were here to give your great advice. No one understands me, you were the only one that did. I love you soo much dad.
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